Ahem...memememe
Are you taller than your mother?
Umm I think so, but I look shorter because I'm fatter.
What color is your car?
We have two. Mine is happy-blue, and broken right now. Justin's is red.
If you instantly become qualified for any profession, what would you do?
A lawyer. Defending the wrongfully accused and perhaps working with the ACLU. If only law school was free and didn't require a PE credit.
What is your ring-tone?
It just rings. I find that the songs get very old very fast particularly if you hear them in your head and dive for the phone even when it's not ringing.
Is there an animal that creeps you out?
Ew ticks. fleas. mosquitoes. Any bloodsucker really.
The last person you rode an elevator with?
Justin I'm sure.
Did you go ice skating as a kid?
No. I can't even seem to walk without falling down. Ice is not a good idea.
Last person you had an argument with.
Justin
Ever have stitches?
I had some staples in my elbow once, but not any stitches.
Favorite non alcoholic drink?
Diet Pepsi with a lime
How long ago did you kiss someone?
About 5 minutes ago. mmm
Ever caught something on fire?
Frequently, but not recently. The most memorable was a wok
Ever seen the northern lights?
No...someday, I hope.
Would you be a surrogate mother, carry a baby for someone else?
Nope. I never, ever want to be pregnant.
Ever been in a fight?
Not for a very long time.
Wearing nail polish?
My toenails are kind of lilac colored but I don't like to paint my fingernails
Innie or outie?
I'm assuming this is referring to my belly button, which is officially classified as an "innie" but is really more of a belly dent.
Ever used a Ouija board?
No. My parents think it's communing with the devil. Strangely it's probably one of the only things my mom and dad agree on. I don't believe in the devil, but if he is real, I doubt Parker Brothers has that sort of connections.
Sweet or sour?
Sour. Pucker Up.
Sun or Moon?
In the past I would have always said the moon. Now, I work at night and I miss the sun. As it turns out I'm really a "mid-afternoon" girl.
What shoes did you wear today?
Black flip flops. It's time to throw them away. They smell like glucose. I don't know why.
Favorite eye color of the opposite sex?
Brown
Most important quality in a relationship.
I stole this from Terroni, who stole it from David Sedaris, who I love.
Real love amounts to withholding the truth, even when you're offered the perfect opportunity to hurt someone's feelings..
So, my answer is discretion.
Nap today?
As soon as The View is over. They are announcing the new moderator today.
Time of day that you were born?
Around 2:15 pm. See I told you I'm an early afternoon girl.
Do you know your blood type?
B- How average.
Name something annoying about public transit?
We don't have any.
Did you grow up in a city or in the country?
Sort of a suburb.
Consider going on a reality show for a large amount of money?
It would have to be a very large amount of money. I'd rather go on a game show.
Flown in your dreams?
No, but I fall off curbs a lot. In my dreams as well as my reality.
Whats the weirdest thing you've ever eaten?
I dunno... I think food in general, particularly kinds of meat and seafood are pretty weird.
Hugs or kisses?
Hugs. Snuggling in particular
What was the best night out of your life? Lurid details please!
This question brings out my pouty face. I don't know why.
Whats your favourite item of clothing?
My black tube top.
What form of dancing are you best (or worse) at?
I'm a really phenomenally bad dancer. Not good at all.
Would you at any time of your life have done playboy for a million?
If they wanted me badly enough to offer me a million dollars then sure I'd do it. But I'm pretty sure they would go out of business.
Gold or silver?
Silver, but I'm trying to ease into some gold without looking all Jersey girl.
If you joined the circus, what would you be?
*frown* The fat lady. Better than the bearded lady I guess. ;)
Do you have a criminal record?
Yes, but hopefully it's going away.
What item of make-up can you not live with out?
I could definitely live make-up free, but would prefer not to go to work without mascara.
Slurpee flavor?
Coconut mmmmhh
Something Scary
In the News:July 19, 2007
Bush Outlaws All War Protest In US
In one of his most chilling moves to date against his own citizens, the American War Leader has issued a sweeping order this week outlawing all forms of protest against the Iraq war.
President Bush enacted into US law an ‘Executive Order’ on July 17th titled “Blocking Property of Certain Persons Who Threaten Stabilization Efforts in Iraq."
It says: ”By the authority vested in me as President by the Constitution and the laws of the United States of America, including the International Emergency Economic Powers Act, as amended, the National Emergencies Act , and section 301 of title 3, United States Code, I, GEORGE W. BUSH, President of the United States of America, find that, due to the unusual and extraordinary threat to the national security and foreign policy of the United States posed by acts of violence threatening the peace and stability of Iraq and undermining efforts to promote economic reconstruction and political reform in Iraq and to provide humanitarian assistance to the Iraqi people, it is in the interests of the United States to take additional steps with respect to the national emergency declared in Executive Order 13303 of May 22, 2003, and expanded in Executive Order 13315 of August 28, 2003, and relied upon for additional steps taken in Executive Order 13350 of July 29, 2004, and Executive Order 13364 of November 29, 2004.”
They've already started arresting protesters and taking their stuff. Like, all of it, guard your flip flops people! I'm waiting patiently for the day when some other government will step in and bring democracy to the United States...what?...we have that?? Wait...did you just say that we are in fact "setting an example of democracy" for the rest of the world? Pshhaw who are you kidding??
I Apologize in Advance
Because I don't really have anything to say, but feel that I should post something, since it's been nearly a week. I may end up rambling so feel free to zone out at any time.Enjoy the gratuitous picture of Nikaia practicing her island dancing
My ankle is somewhat better, badly bruised just below my ankle, kind of deep dark purple, and then a larger, fist sized bruise up further just below my calf. I think the ace bandage has caused this, but Justin disagrees and says that that sort of pressure wouldn't cause this sort of bruise. I don't know why he knows that. I'm still supposed to go get an x-ray to make sure there's not a hairline fracture, but I'm hesitant to do this, as we have not yet met the deductible on our insurance so the cost will be out of pocket, and we really can't afford that right now. Besides, if it is a hairline fracture, won't they basically just make me do what I'm doing now ie: staying off of it, wearing a splint etc?
My sister has asked me to be a bridesmaid. I agreed to do this, thinking that it would cause more problems to decline, I don't want to insult anyone or anything, but the thing is, I'm having a really hard time finding a dress that a) fits b) is the correct color (brown) and c) is even remotely affordable. Her other bridesmaid (who I don't know) snagged one at JCPenney for around $35. Unfortunately, JCPenney hasn't carried anything in my size since I was in high school. I dunno, there's a month and a half til the wedding, but I'm starting to wonder if I should bow out.
If we can scrounge around enough money I think we're going to see Harry Potter tomorrow, or maybe Hairspray if my aunt goes with us...that's all for now. I guess I did have something to say...
About Once a Year
A Failure.
I feel worthless.
I don't want to talk about it.
Sniff Snort Sneeze
Tonight was supposed to be my last night at my current job, I had actually planned to just not go in, since they didn't accept my two week notice as an actual 2 week notice, thanks to the jerk that took my paperwork, and I'll be considered "not rehire-able" anyway. However, the hospital (and everyone involved in this process) seems to be dragging their feet. They haven't gotten the results of my drug-test and background check back yet, and the HR woman is out of town so I won't know anything 'til Tuesday. I don't want to be potentially jobless, so I've extended my notice by another week and I'll continue slaving away until then. Assuming that everything is clear. If not (which is a possibility), then I'll have to slave away for the crazy deaf people indefinately. (Please note, I don't think all deaf people are crazy, just the ones that I'm dealing with.)
Ugh. I'm actually starting to get really worried about this so everyone think good thoughts or say prayers or whatever your particular kind of help is that everything works out and I can start at a new and wonderful job sometime next week.
Also, for anyone who might be wondering, my TB test was, as predicted, negative. Have to go for another one on Tuesday just to be extra sure.
Poked and Prodded
Today I went to HR to fill out the applicable paper work for my new job. On the way I stopped in the bathroom. Hospitals are the best place for that sort of thing because unless something terrible happened the moment before you walked through the door, they are generally clean.Anyway, filled out the paper work and then headed to Employee Health to get my TB test and drug screening. Damn. Shouldn't have gone to the bathroom. After three tries I was finally able to um...produce. bleh. While we waited I went ahead and got my pertussis (whooping cough) vaccine, they were, after all, free. I have to go back on Thursday for them to look at my TB arm and then the next Tuesday to get it tested all over again. Hopefully by then I will already be working and it'll just be a short trip down the hall. I have no idea when I'll actually start, but my last day at my current job is Thursday...so hopefully Monday. I also don't know how much I'm getting paid. I assume they'll tell me at some point, but right now, no one seems to know so I'm not the only one in the dark.
I have to go to bed now. My whooping cough arm really hurts.
Just an added note, I have never seen anything that color in a syringe before. Are any IV drugs neon blue? Must be Kool-Aid.
An Orphan
But it gets worse. I was flipping through the albums of their new pictures from over the weekend, and there is a picture of D'Liesa, Sussan and Stacy. Sort of an "all the girls" pic, but um, I'm not in it. They said " oh you're not in the pictures because you weren't here," but I was there yesterday. If they had planned on taking family pictures I feel like they should have told me. I feel like I'm not a member of the family anymore and it really really hurts my feelings.
It's not just the pictures either, their friends don't know about me. I know that seems like a weird thing to say, or to feel bad about, but the thing is, they all do know Stacy, Steven and D'Liesa and her kids. When I went to the party at the fire station on the 4th of July people didn't know who I was. I'm now "Stacy and Steven's sister" instead of "Susan" or "Bobby's daughter." At a community function with my dad a few weeks ago, a woman actually said something like "oh I didn't know you had another daughter."
My feelings are so hurt. I don't feel like I can talk to my dad about it because I know that he'll just take Sussan's side. I actually did ask him about the picture thing a few weeks ago (there hasn't been a pic displayed of me in about a year), I said "hey, where's that picture of you and me that I gave you? It's not on the family table" and he said that it was on his night stand, but it wasn't, and when I told him that he couldn't think of where it might be.
The worst part is that they made me put a picture of Sussan up on my family picture magnet board. I was resistant to doing that because I don't have a picture of my step-dad up there, so I thought that was fair. Apparently not. She had a fit and so now there's a pic of her in my house, but not one of me in hers. I feel very very rejected. *sigh*
My dad and Sussan have been married for half my life now, and they always pretend that everything is equal and that we're one big happy family with no "steps" involved, but It's becoming very very clear that she's functioning under an "us versus them" mentality. I guess it was clear all along, but she's becoming bolder in the way that she's making her statements and I don't know what to do about it...
Actually, now that I think about it, it's really more of an "us versus Susan" kind of thing. I don't think I'm going to go over any more. My dad can come see me here.
Happy 4th
I enjoy Independence Day mainly because it's the only holiday that can be referred to only as a number. We aren't doing anything special, I'm going to the fire department for a hot dog (my dad's a fireman, I'm not just showing up to crash their party), and then I'll probably go back to bed. We have to work later tonight and I'll need a little more sleep, but who can resist a hot dog cooked outside? Certainly not me.I put in my 2 week notice at my current job this morning. I dated it July 2, which is a little bit of a lie, but no member of management has been there since then anyway so whatever. I'm scheduled for my TB test on Tuesday. Not that I think I have TB but I'm the sort of hypochondriac that has thought processes like this:
"There was that guy in Alabama recently who didn't feel sick or anything and by some fluke, like a car wreck or something, he had a chest x-ray and they found a lump of TB in his lung the size of a baseball...and here I've been coughing for a *year*!! I'm going to die!!! And lose this job!!!"
And then I have some cake and feel better, with no guilt regarding my neurosis (or sugar intake) at all.
That's a true story by the way, the baseball TB guy. And that's exactly the way I heard it too...does TB come in lumps??
Didn't get the fireworks picture last night. A recent break in my insomnia has occurred at a rather inopportune time and I slept til time to go to work. Maybe tomorrow...anyway they'll be here when I get them. For now, you can pretend the one that is on here is mine, even though it most certainly isn't.
Beverly Sills has died. There aren't many great ones left...
I Got It!
Thursday night the people whose job I didn't want called and offered it to me. Apparently they liked me after all. Huh.
Friday I went to interview in the department that I liked and it was *terrific* the best interview I've ever had. One member of the panel hugged me. They told me to wait in the lobby while they talked about me and then a few minutes later they came and told me that they wanted to hire me but had to clear it with the management people and that they would call me.
It was a Friday so of course all the management types went home at noon. I had to wait out the weekend, as you saw, in my previous post. Yesterday they called and offered me the job Yaaay!!! I wanted it so bad. The people there are so great and I really feel like I fit in there and will be happy. I haven't felt like that since I moved away from Canyon 3 years ago. The job is in the admissions office and there are only about 10 people working there so its cozy and they bring a lot of food for impromptu parties. My kinda place, plus they like me...like a lot. Clearly they think I'm much cooler than I actually am.
So, today I had to go to the interview set up last week because even though I got the job I wanted, its good to make connections in as many places as you can. My little (excuse me, younger) brother works at the cancer center and I thought that if I liked the job and liked the people that it would save some gas to work over there. It was not the job that I applied for, and I did not like the people. That made my decision much easier. Not that they've offered me the job yet, but they will.
Anyway I'm really happy and excited and I get to buy some fancy black scrubs.
Justin and I are going to attempt to take some pictures with fireworks tonight so everyone hope that we don't set ourselves on fire.
No Distraction
At Last
James and our parents after he asked their permission and swore us to secrecy.Together they have three children (and two supermen apparently)
Hannah, Hunter and Sean (from left to right)
So, there's the news...everyone can relax...except the wedding planners I guess...
Ok People
I'm quite sure you will all be disappointed, but I'm excited about it anyway.
Oh my god I just saw the funniest commercial I have ever seen.
It's a porcupine, and she says "when I have a feminine itch"
and then a skunk says "and there's odor"
and then a blowfish says "do people notice?"
Well sweeties I'm pretty sure the first thing they notice is that you gals are um talking...
I have no idea what this commercial is for, as I fast forwarded after the animals were gone but I don't think I've ever been so entertained. I'm going to rewind and buy whatever it is that they are selling, even though, to save myself from embarassment, I'll say at the cash register "I don't actually need this product, but the commercial is great!!"
For Summer:
As many Jalepenos as you want
Cut the ends off
Split them in half
Scrape out the hot stuff (seeds and veins)
(it's important to do this under running or a sink full of water because if not it will burn your eyes and lungs, or if you're brave, you can leave the hot stuff in)
Spoon cream cheese into pepper halves (as much as you like)
Wrap pepper/cream cheese in half a piece of bacon
Bake in the oven at 400 degrees for about 30 minutes, or until bacon is crispy.
Don't touch your eyes, nose or any sensitive bits for several hours, even if you wash your hands....unless you're into pain.
Father's Day
I haven't done a play in years. Haven't been involved in the theatre in any way except as a rapt audience member. I was pretty sure that I had the drama bug out of my system, but, as I watch the Tonys (Tivo'd) and see Bernadette Peters, I still make this noise : "ahhhheeee!"
David Hyde Pierce just won his first Tony after many many years in the biz and this makes me unspeakably happy. I know every line and every word to every song in A Chorus Line. I guess the bug is still with me.
Yesterday was Father's Day. We had dinner with my dad, steaks and potatoes and corn on the cob. Justin made stuffed jalepenos. It was delicious and a really good time. In honor of Father's Day, I'm posting a picture of my dad:

Justin brought me flowers last night after he went to the store with my brother. One of them is behind my dad's ear. Here are the other ones (and me):

Ok so that's all for now. Cross your fingers that we hear something about Justin's potential new job today. I actually have some other big exciting news, but I can't post it 'til next week 'cause it's a secret...
Click Your Heels...
Why can't I give this post a title? Is anyone else having this problem??
We Made It
Whatdayaknow
There's Always Something
I don't know if I mentioned it or not, but on the way home with the U-Haul last week I had a blow out in the car. Justin was ahead of me and he didn't know so I had to wait for about an hour for my dad to come get me. The tires are only about a year old so we thought that surely they would be covered under the warranty that my aunt got when she bought the tires for us last year. Apparently the alignment in the car was off (which they didn't tell us when they put the tires on), and that is what caused the blow-out. This is considered our fault so the tires are not under warranty. We have to replace both back tires on the car. They are a weird size and so the cheapest they come is $75 per tire. Fantastic. We have enough money to do this right now, but not to do this and buy groceries, gas, etc until our next payday. However, in order to get to work and have a next payday, the tires have to be replaced. Justin is in Lubbock buying new tires now. *sigh*
The timing of this would have been terrific if only we had been able to make it for 5 more days. We are flying out to Bryan on Thursday because my mom and step-dad are giving Justin a pick up. Unfortunately, our tires will not last going back and forth to work for the 5 days in between. There is always something.
I will post pics of the new house as soon as possible.
Sad
Moved
To Take My Mind Off Things
spell it backwards: nasus
spell it with your elbow: dsjss n
spell it with your eyes shut: susan
spell it with your forehead: xduhjsdazqhy
spell it with your nose: suwan
spell it with your chin: suhza n
Justin caught me trying to do it with my nose and scolded me for getting oil from my hair on the screen. There's not any oil on the screen. Ha! It was embarassing though...Try it!
Fat Girl Revolution

The Hot Fat Girl Manifesto
Because being a hot fat girl is a lot of work and is undervalued or unrecognized.
Because a fat girl still has to pay more money for uglier clothes or spend 11 hours at the thrift store to find anything hot to wear.
Because if you take the elevator, people think you're lazy but if you're on the treadmill, people laugh.
Because men like John Goodman and Bernie Mac get to have careers on television but sitcom-moms-of-three still have size-two waists.
Because even feminist magazines publish fat-phobic articles under the guise of it being a "health issue."
Because anti-capitalist activists still use expressions like "fat capitalist pig."
Because girls are dieting at the age of nine.
Because side effects of the most popular diet drugs are seizures, heart failure, fecal urgency, breast cancer, lung disease, insomnia, nausea and vomiting, dangerously high blood pressure, abnormal heartbeat, psychosis, strokes, hallucinations and sudden death.
Because the Cooper Institute's ongoing study of 30,000 people has found that those who are fittest live the longest, no matter what they weigh.
Because the doctor who said that there were 30,000 "obesity-related" deaths each year received over $2 million in research funding from Jenny Craig and Weight Watchers.
Because that study prompted the FDA to approve Phen-Phen and Redux.
Because fat-hatred is a money-making industry.
Because fat people who exercise live longer than thin people who don't.
Because if you lose weight 'cause you're sick, people telling you how great you look.
Because fat-hatred is so ingrained in every single one of us, especially inside the heart of even the hottest fat girl.
Because even the most progressive people don't talk or write about it.
Because I am tired of being ignored, invisible, de-sexualized and told that I have such a pretty face.
Because it's not fat that kills, it's fear of fat.
For all that and more I am a part of the HOT FAT GIRL REVOLUTION!
(first posted in Shamless Magazine 2005)So There!
The Update.
New Box Total
Too Much Stress.
This stress killing me. I've been sick to my stomach every day this week. I look old. I have lots of new gray hair. I ache in weird places and I don't know how much of this I can take. I haven't even gotten as much done as I should, but now I have new boxes and I've moved from 11 to 16 today. More packing will happen this weekend. At this point it's mostly the kitchen and bedrooms that need serious work, the living room is pretty much gutted... I want to curl up and cry, perhaps I'll watch Ellen instead.
So that's the update.
One Year
We have to go figure out which family member's freezer our cake top is in so we can eat it. Yaay cake!!
Boxes
So, it turns out we are moving this Thursday (the 24) instead of next Thursday (the 31), as we had originally thought. Apparently my parents were planning for us and not letting us in on the details, so I just started packing today. So far, I've done 11 boxes, and frankly, it hasn't made that much difference, which is really disappointing and frustrating. The boxes I have just aren't really big enough to pack very much stuff in. So, right now, our book case is empty and all non-essential bathroom things are packed. I just really don't know where to start and I really don't want to do this. Oh well, at least I'll get to pick out a new shower curtain.
The Edge
Justin just said "don't look at my computer screen for a minute." I wonder what he's looking at...oh a shark. Good thing I didn't look. Things in the water scare me. Especially things with teeth. Ok I have to go watch Heroes (only 2 episodes left!!) and decompress for a bit.
Oh yeah, I know I'll probably go directly to hell for saying this, but I'm really freakin' glad that Jerry Falwell is finally dead. Maybe Pat Robertson is next in line.
One more thing, I'm really tired of hearing about John Edwards expensive haircut. (Are you reading this Mike Huckabee?) If the only bad thing they can find to say about the guy is that he overpays for a trim, I say move him into the white house this weekend...Maybe he'll send me the left over boxes.
Damn
We're working days this week, as we are in a training class. I'm hoping that the new computer system that we are learning will stave off the burn-out that I've been feeling for awhile. I just really don't know how much longer I can take it. Justin and I are looking for new jobs now. Justin has a couple of pretty good leads, but so far the best I've been able to find is substituting the next school year. Maybe I can hold on until August.
We do have some very good news on top of all the yuck. My step-dad, James, has gotten a new pick up and he and my mom are giving his old truck (a 1998 Nissan something), to Justin. This will make our lives much easier. Now we can find work at seperate places and in a couple of semesters, all of Justin's classes will be one town over, so he'll need some way to get over there. We're flying down to College Station in a few weeks to pick it up and drive it back, assuming that we can get moved etc. in time. We're supposed to be out of this house by June 1st. I'm hoping that we can fly down to College Station on June 14.
So, that's the news for now. More as and when.
Happy Mother's Day

Maybe I sent in this secret and forgot...Anyway, anyone who hasn't been to Post Secret should totally make it a weekly routine. It certainly helps me feel less alone.
Now back on subject, to all my mommy friends out there, I hope you have a great Mother's Day complete with breakfast in bed someone else making dinner!!
Pomp and Circumstance
Anyway, we finally convinced him that his clothes were fine, and this is what we looked like at the party:
Here are Justin, Ashlie and Nikaia at the party:
We are really proud of her.Now if we can get Justin the rest of the way through school, we'll all live happily ever after. :)
Poor Maybe
The first few minutes are the worst I think, she wanders around the house rubbing it on stuff thinking she'll find the magic unlatch corner or something and then she sort of loses the will to live and lays down for about 2 minutes. After she realizes the drama isn't helping, she's just a very well behaved dog the rest of the night, and she gets to sleep in a soft bed and chase cats at will. See, we're not really the bad guys.
In non-dog news, Justin's done with school for the summer. His A&P teacher told him that he's the best student she's ever had and a whole handful of other great things, and he aced his final. His English teacher was a psychopath, but he still managed to get out with a B, so that worked out okay.
We're leaving in the morning after work for Amarillo. Justin's sister is graduating from dental hygienist school, so in honor of that, I am posting a picture of her cleaning Justin's teeth. :)
Yay Ashlie!!
Good To Know.
&
Justin
Discover Your Compatibility
It's My Party.
Well, not really, but it is my birthday. The "party" was yesterday. My dad cooked hamburgers for me at his house and the family ate dinner and cake and sang to me. I am officially 26. Today I spent the day with my aunt, brother, sister and dad running errands and buying enormous amounts of meat at Sam's. (We aren't going to eat out anymore.)The computer is working on life support. Justin spent most of today trying to get our fried hard drive to work so that he can finish off the last of his school work for the semester. It was stressful, but for now, it is working.
So, everybody eat dessert for me today!
Zzz...
Something has changed, and I don't like it. Last week, and yesterday, I was so tired that I couldn't stay up past 3pm. So both days I was like "oh I'm just going to sleep for 2 hours, please wake me up." And Justin, with fear in his heart (I'm not good at being awakened), agreed. Both days I yelled at him and went back to bed...Last week I ended up just sleeping right through until 5am. That's like 16 hours of sleep! And it's not like I needed it either. I woke up multiple times fully ready to wake up, but I didn't get up because Justin was in bed and there's nothing to do at 1am and I didn't just want to watch tv etc. So yesterday it happened again. I didn't want a repeat performance though, so I made myself get up at 8 (even though I was sulky and prickly) and stay up for a few hours, before going back to bed. I managed to get it down to about 11 hours of sleep, which is much less obscene.
So, now it's 5:30am and I'm going to do everything I can to stay up 'til a decent time tonight. Like at least 9:30. It's my birthday weekend, and I don't want to sleep through the festivities.
Slow.
I Know
My niece is having her 3rd birthday party this evening, which we can't attend because it doesn't start until 6pm and we should be long asleep by then, as we have to work tonight. Everyone in charge of planning the party knew that, and still they exclude us. It's quite hurtful. I'm posting a picture of the birthday girl anyway. It's not her fault. So, here's Hannah:

Cute, isn't she?
Also, as it turns out, (and this should be a surprise to no one), I am not a good jump roper. I can do about 10 jumps in a row before it smacks into my toes (yes, of course I'm barefoot), and then I curse loudly. Sometimes instead of smacking into my toes it catches on my gigantic butt. It also seems to exacerbate what I think is a stress fracture in my right leg. (Probably caused from jump roping badly). But it's a lot of fun anyway, so I'm going to keep doing it. After a "weekend" of no jumping, my leg feels a little better.
Actually, after posting, I am feeling a little better in general. Maybe I should blog when I have a bad attitude. Hmm.
One week from tomorrow, I will be 26.
One year ago yesterday, I got my wedding dress in the mail.
Thanks...
Vanity Thy Name is...
Finally
I passed the 10 pound mark on my weight loss "journey." (Isn't that a cheesy thing to call it? I couldn't think of a better word.) It's actually about 12 lbs down. Hurray!! And, in other things under the "finally" category, my friend Amanda had her baby on the 12. He is very beautiful, and I am very very jealous.He weighs 8 pounds. Ha! I've lost more weight than a baby!
The ballet on Friday was wonderful and beautiful, and in a tiny little theater. It was very intimate, and sometimes I could hear ankles popping. Quite traumatic, as my worse fear is broken ankles (mine or anyone else's).
Terroni, I am working on getting a picture of my hot new bag, perhaps tomorrow.
A Little Culture
Justin and I are going to the ballet tonight. We are seeing A Midsummer Nights Dream. I am sooo excited. It's been ages since I've seen anything on stage, and it's one of my favorite things. He got the tickets for me for my birthday (which is still a while away, but you have to jump on stuff like this. The show's only here for 3 days). Anyway, it's just the best, most thoughtful gift ever! I also managed to find a lovely purse yesterday, so the great bag search has ended. It was in one of those little boutique shops that market to 13 year old girls and housewives who wish they were still 13 year old girls. It's not a place that I would normally have ever gone in, but I saw a bag in the window and you know... Anyway it was fantastic! And cheap! And don't tell anyone, but I'm probably going to go back! I figure the class of the ballet negates the tackiness of the shop. So there.
Happy Easter
Gimme My Fix
Also
I really want a new purse. I saw one today that I really really liked, except that it had a huge rhinestone cross on the front. I really wanted to ask the lady where she got it, but I generally don't talk to strangers in public. I've looked all over the internet for one similar in shape, size and color (square, big, pink) but I can't find one anywhere. *sigh* I guess it's just not meant to be.
(another) New Look

Ok, so most of the comments about my previous new look were not that great so I'm trying something else. I think I really like this format, the only problem being that I can't figure out how to get my blog title at the top where it goes, so if anyone knows how to do this please let me know. Also let me know if it is
a.) reflective enough of my girly-girl nature (Patrick)
b.) less "expectant mother-ish" (Proxima)
and
c.) I think that the title is probably easy to read now (Teronni), although it isn't exactly where I want it, for a long time it wasn't there at all, this is better than nothing.
Comments welcome!
A New Look
All Wet
Ok, so today Justin and I were going to take a quick trip to Lubbock to see The 300. (If you get to the movies before 5pm, it's only $5.) So we stopped for gas as we got into town, and when Justin got back in the car, the battery was dead. (This is after a long string of battery deaths and restarts that we've had over the past few months. Yes, we knew that we should probably buy a new battery, but we haven't wanted to spend the money on it because, as it turns out, they are quite expensive.) Sooo, Justin asks the guy driving the Best Buy Geek Squad VW beetle for a jump so that we can get to an auto parts store and sell our souls for a battery. He agrees to boost us, but it doesn't work (I say it's because his car had a weird battery, but Justin says that his battery just wasn't strong enough for the boost...whatever.) Justin then asks him if he would mind taking him to the auto parts store down the street about a mile so he can buy a battery, and just drop him off there. He doesn't want him to wait or anything, just a drop off...the guy says "nope, good luck," and takes off. Did I mention that it's POURING DOWN RAIN? Oh, and FREEZING.
Justin takes off walking for the auto parts store, and I sit in the car crying because I'm afraid he's going to get run over on the highway, and about 10 minutes later he comes back, soaked and without a battery because it has started raining harder and he can't make it to the store because the road is all flooded and there is no sidewalk, and he keeps getting tidal waved by the cars, which just keep on speeding by. THEN we decide to call the roadside assistance number that is in our phone. Hey, we pay for that, why not use it? So I call them, and they tell me that we do not in fact, have roadside assistance, in spite of the fact that we remember specifically asking for it when we signed up for this phone plan. THEN the cell phone battery died. (My curling iron was also dead this morning...I think we're developing a pattern.)
The rain started to let up and Justin headed out again for the auto parts store. This time someone stopped and picked him up. (Never mind the fact that the guy was drunk and almost got them run over by a Humvee. We are still very grateful for his help.) He took Justin to the store, and then brought him back. They tried to jump our existing battery again, just for giggles and it started. (see I told you it was that damn Bug.) We high-tailed it to the auto parts store, as they had told Justin that they would install it for free, but once they got our old battery out it turned out that the ($100!!) battery we had purchased was in fact, not the correct kind. They didn't have the right one, but someone at the other store did and they could bring it right over...Might as well have a 10 minute oil change while we wait, since we're well over the limit on that particular maintenance chore.
ONE HOUR LATER...
The guy arrives with our fresh new battery, we shell out some more cash for it, (apparently they just keep getting more expensive the longer you wait) and we are on our merry way. By this time we were waaaay too drained to see the movie, so we came home to warm up, (dry off in Justin's case) and get taken out for free dinner by my dad. Yay Dad! We managed to spend four hours and nearly $200 in Lubbock today and not get off 19th street. That takes some serious talent.
So, that was our day, how was yours?
Aww and Oww
In other news, I think I have swimmers ear. Don't ask me how it's not like I've been swimming and I try to get all the water out of my ears when I shower, but my ears hurt, and feel hot, and super pressurized, and just popping them isn't working to solve the problem, and the pain gets worse if I tug gently on my earlobes. (Why, you ask, is she tugging on her earlobes? Well usually it feels nice and helps me go to sleep, but not at the moment.) Ok, so does anyone know anything I can do to help this? Being a modern girl I did some research online, but everything says to go to the doctor and my $300 deductible says otherwise. Home remedies anyone??
Wow
Found!
In weight loss news, I haven't been on the scale during a well...during an accurate time of the month so I'm not sure if I've lost any more (it says 1 pound so maybe), however I have these new big dents in the tops of my thighs which make my legs look skinny but my hips look bigger by comparison. I don't like this random spot weight loss....Oh well at least something is happening.
Lost
Ok so the blog isn't going to go incognito. I'm just too lazy.Justin seems to have lost his wallet. The last place he remembers putting it was on the visor of the car, but it's not there or anywhere else in the car, or the house as far as we can tell. Our best bet now is that he left it at work, but no one there has turned it in yet. What a giant pain.
We've already canceled the bank card, which is a huge huge pain, as we don't usually carry much cash, and the bank is in Lubbock, so we'll have to go all the way over there to pick up some cash. Also, we don't think they'll give us a new card. The thing is, when we opened the account, we got a savings account, and we thought it was really snazzy because our bank is the only one I've ever been to that gives a visa debit card for savings accounts. Usually you have to have a checking account for that sort of magic. Then in January they decided that they didn't like the policy of giving out cards to savings account holders, and they wanted everyone to either open a checking account or turn in their cards. However, they can't legally just take the cards away from savings account customers. So they wait until you screw up the account somehow or have to cancel the card and then haha! You don't have a card anymore. Ugh.
We don't want a checking account. They always get overdrawn even when we try really hard and then we have to pay a bunch of money and get a new account. Blah. Oh well it'll work out. We're pretty sure the wallet isn't stolen, so I'm sure it will turn up somewhere stupid. If (and this is unlikely) any of you see it lying around please mail it to the address on the drivers license.
Disregard the bad picture of me.
Are You on the List?
Justin would like for me to make my blog private so that not just anyone can read it. This sounds like a whole bunch of trouble to me, but I'm thinking of trying it out. If you read my blog, and you want to continue to read my blog if it goes under the radar please email me your email address, and I will send you an invite so that you have to work for admittance.It'll be like Studio54, without the drugs.
Again, I might not actually go this route because I like hearing from strangers. Thanks to Teronni for the comment by the way. I see you have an under the radar blog. (I assume, because I couldn't see it.) How's that workin' for ya?
Any thoughts are, as always, appreciated
Crisis Averted
It's spring break now, and Justin got his XBox back from the Microsoft repair center just in time, so he's happy. It came back really quickly, and initially we thought that it was still broken because the drawer was stuck the first time, but it seems to be working fine now, so yay for Justin!
Maybe got fixed last week and I took her yesterday to get her stitches out. Her belly is all floppy from where she was swollen and it's funny, but we're trying not to make fun of her. I'd hate for her to develop a complex or point out all of my floppy places...
Speaking of floppy places, I seem to be losing and gaining the same 3 pounds over and over. Since mid-January I've managed to lose, and keep off 6 pounds, but my birth control seems to make that pesky 3 come and go every week so I can't add it to the total yet. I've boosted my exercise though so maybe in a couple of weeks I can say "Yes! 9!" We'll see. I'm hoping to have lost enough by the end of May that we can go see my mom sometime around our anniversary. I don't want to go if I'm just going to get called fat again.
I started tanning on Thursday so I feel really happy. The extra melanin that it produces in me makes me feel soooo good. And even though I know that tanning is really NOT GOOD for my skin, it is really quite good for my depression, and I figure that if I only tan for a couple of months a year that the trade off is worth it. I don't spend any time in the actual sun anyway so I'm probably only getting the amount of exposure that a normal person gets in a day anyway.
I guess that's all for now. I feel excellent. Maybe I'll go for a walk...
Well La Di Da
I know, I know it's been like a freakin' month since I posted last. I promise promise I'll try to do better. So we got some exciting news yesterday...we're moving! How could this be news, you ask, don't people normally plan for a move weeks or months in advance, you ask. Well, we've never been much for tradition I suppose...BAH!I'll get to that. First here's an update on something else: As you know, Justin's sister, Ashlie, got married a little while before us and now has a lovely little girl, Nikaia. His mom called us a couple of weeks ago and told us that her husband, (Ashlies, not Justin's mom's husband anyway) we'll call him Jerkface, was being emotionally abusive and controlling and that she (Ash) didn't know what to do. Some time after that Justin talked to Ashlie and she confirmed this, but told him that she had decided to leave him and just didn't know how or when. Something like a week after that HE LEFT HER! I cannot believe that he thinks he's the one that's been wronged here. I guess though, that he saved her the trouble. But it still sucks. She is now living with her parents (and Nikaia), and seems to be pretty happy about the whole thing, but I know that it's hard and I'm sure that she's scared and hurting, even though she's putting on a totally brave face. Anyway Ashlie is a strong, smart, hot girl and I know that she's gonna make it through this. Besides she's about to be finished with dental hygiene school, which totally blows whatever Jerkface's stupid job was out of the water anyway.
So here's the real deal about our surprise move: Yesterday I checked my myspace email...I don't know why I bother, I rarely have messages there, but I digress. I had an email from my ex-brother-in-law (Les) telling me that my stepsister (D'Liesa), who we rent this house from, signed over the deed and all rights to the property to him on FEBRUARY 6, and he hopes she told us that we need to be out by the end of April!!!
Ok so here are the facts:
* It's been a full month since this dirty deal was made and until yesterday we hadn't heard a whisper about it.
*During that time we saw D'Liesa, in person at least once and I talked to her on the phone twice.
*Since Les is now in charge, our rent has gone from $300 to $176 (the cost of the actual mortgage for him, this is the one positive fact in the case).
*The rent change was effective on February 6, however we didn't know this, so we paid D'Liesa the full $300 on February 14.
*I think that means she owes us $124, but she's not even acknowledging that. She also isn't acknowledging that she might be a little bit in the wrong here. All she keeps saying is that she called multiple times and left messages for me to call her so she could tell me and I never called her back. Ok people, I have a cell phone. It tells me every call that comes in and it's not in the habit of hiding messages from me. She did not call. Not once. Which is beside the point, as I mentioned We saw her in person 2 weeks after the change!! She also could have sent an email, a comment on myspace, a letter or a freakin' carrier pigeon!! There is no excuse for this.
Did I mention that we saw her in person?
I know that we have almost two full months to get it together and find a place and move, and I also suspect that if we ask nicely, Les would let us stay 'til May when school is out and there will be more available living space, but that is not even the point. The point is that we could have had a whole extra month to plan and save look at options. It's really hard to find somewhere decent (and affordable) to live in this college town. Plus, we've been working and working to save money so that we have some cash in savings and maybe some to take a little vacation for our anniversary, and now, I'm sure we're going to have to spend a whole big bunch of it on deposits and transfers and general moving crap and then we'll be back to doing the paycheck to paycheck thing. Plus, I'm quite sure that we'll never see the cash that D'Liesa swindled from us for last months rent again. (And I KNOW that's why she didn't tell us about the change, she wanted that cash. Cow.)
Anyway, we're not opposed to moving to the Canyon area so y'all in that region keep an eye out for us....
I cannot believe I got through this whole post without cursing.

