Happy Easter

It's freakin cold. I miss the days when Easter was warm, I got a new pink dress, and there was an egg hunt after lunch. However, church this morning was really cool.

Skinny Pants!

I'm wearing my skinny pants today! And they're not tight! And my belly looks flat! (With clothes on anyway, naked, it's a different story.) Yay!

The Payoff.

I am getting thin(ner). True, it's going very slowly, frustratingly slowly, but going nonetheless. Out of the last fourteen days, I've exercised for 11. I don't know if I've lost any actual pounds, that could be seen on the scale, but I do know that when I look in the mirror, I see a different body than was there two weeks ago. My butt is firmer and...perkier, Ditto for my breasts. My hips are smaller, and my belly, while not flat, is certainly less round. My arms don't have that funny rounded shape that made me look wide. I just look *smaller* in general. The biggest difference though, is that my double chin is practically non existant. Nearly gone. I have a jawline. I have cheekbones. Also, the part of my belly, just above my ribcage, below my breasts, is getting skinny - fast. I feel really good about myself for the first time in a very long time. Perhaps by the time I go back to Levelland at the end of May to visit, I'll be beautiful. Perhaps.

Lots Going On

Hm. So last night I went to bed half an hour later than I needed to to get up at 6 this morning and exercise. It wasn't anyone's fault, (except mine), it's just the way it happened, and if I was less in love with getting *exactly* nine hours of sleep, I would have just dragged myself out of bed and done it anyway, but I didn't. And y'know what? I'm cranky about it. Never in my life have I been upset about not working out. I looked forward to those days at school when it was to rainy or cold or something that I didn't have gym/athletics. I think that finally, after nearly twenty four years, my body has decided that it likes exercise. That it looks forward to it even. Today I denied it the pleasure, and now I am cranky. I'm going to do it tonight. And then at 6 am tomorrow. And then every day (almost) for the rest of forever. Ha! I'm going to be so hot. (read: skinnyish) *grin*

Today, in two and a half hours, Justin has a job interview. For a really good job at Best Buy (read: not a sales or floor position). I'm so proud of him, and so excited and so...hopeful. Our lives will be so much better if he gets it...well, maybe not better, we're pretty well off in the scheme of things, but there'll be much less stress in any case.

And more good news...my friend Patrick is engaged. And to an amazing girl (from what I can tell, and I'm a pretty good judge of character usually): Tiffany. I'm so happy that I make these tinny squeaking noises and smile really big. Patrick really deserves this kind of happiness.

Also, as predicted, my dad and Sussan have decided not to come this weekend. And...he (my dad) was kind of rude to me on the phone this morning too. Hmph. The excuse this time is that it's just a regular two day weekend, and they don't think that that's enough time. So he says that they'll come next weekend, which for them, is a four day weekend. However this weekend is my long weekend. *sigh* Doesn't matter. Chances are they won't be here next weekend either. I refuse to get my hopes up again.

Justin and I are going to have fun this weekend anyway. We're going to see Into the Woods at the Campus Theatre, and hang out at the Botanic Gardens in Fort Worth. We've decided that when we get married, we want to have the ceremony and reception there, so it'll be nice to see what's blooming this time of year. I suspect it's everything.

6 am:Not Only For the Old & Crazy

I was really tired yesterday and feeling pretty 'down' in general, so I went from work to the chiropractor, from the chiropractor home, and ate dinner. At about 7:15 I headed to bed without a shower or work out. To make up for the workout (and certainly the shower my short hair gets oily faster than long...) I dragged myself out of bed this morning at 6 (my alarm actually went off at five, but I laid around for awhile convincing myself to get up). I exercised and then showered and dressed, and to tell the truth, I feel better than I have in a long time. I think I'm going to start getting up every day (or at least work days) at 6 and exercising/showering before work. I'll certainly have to adjust my sleeping times though, I guess going to bed at 9 instead of 10, which means *gasp* I'll have to miss CSI and Law & Order. Maybe Justin will record them for me. So anyway, it's been a really good day so far, but I'm still glad that it's halfway over.

But First, A Haiku

I do not want to be here.
I want to be home
in bed or on the sofa.


So, it's not a good day. The weekend was good, I got a lot of sleep and a lot of exercise, and a lot of time to cuddle Justin and watch TV and do nothing. I slept enough last night, and there was no reason for me to wake up this morning and just *not* want to come to work.

But that's what happened.

I'm cranky, and feel sort of...heavy (in spite of the fact that the past week or so of exercise seems to be paying off). AND my supervisor decided today to bring me all the work that I've made mistakes on for the past three months. hurray.

I hate feeling like I'm not good at this job. I learn quickly, and that's what everyone here is saying: "you picked up on this so fast!" So why do I have a stack of trouble on my desk? It's quite frustrating. And it's also frustrating, that I feel like they don't like me. Perhaps that part is paranoia. Perhaps.

So I confirmed (again) with my dad and Sussan today that they are indeed coming this weekend. Why all the confirmation you ask? Well, because they tend to say that they're coming, and I clean the house furiously, make all sorts of plans and get excited, only to find that on the day of, they call and cancel. This happens on a fairly regular basis.

One good thing: I found these shoes that I really really want: http://www.mbt-shoe.com/
They have lots of benefits, as you'll see on their website, and an actual podiatrist (sp?) recommended them to the news for cellulite and back/joint problems. Hm. I have all those things! The only thing is, they're kind of expensive, $234. I'm going to ask for them for my birthday, which is coming up in May, and see what happens.

General Update

So, it's Friday, and it's been five days since I posted at the begginning of the week. I haven't really had any computer time. Normally I use the computer in the courtroom at work on my lunch to post, but I've been out of the building for lunch every day this week except Monday and yesterday. Yesterday, Justin brought me a chicken salad for lunch, and I tried to eat in here, but crazy people kept coming in and wanting to go to court. Ptth. They're supposed to wait in the hall like the criminals they are! *grin*

Anyway, I've exercised every day this week, except yesterday, because yesterday was my late night at work, and I'm writing down everything I eat. It doesn't mean that I'm eating any better, but at least I'm aware. Justin's going to start taking front and side pics of me in my panties and tank top once a week, on Mondays, so that I can see my progress in the weight loss arena.

Next weekend My dad, Sussan, Stacy and Steven are coming to visit, I think. That's the plan anyway. I hope that we end up going to the Ft. Worth Zoo that Saturday. We didn't get to see the giraffes last time, and I want to.

Hi Ho, Hi Ho

It's back to work I go.

Justin and I had a fantastic weekend together, after a blow up on Friday morning. For awhile, I was afraid all was lost, but it's looking pretty hunky dory now. I'm back to work today. I slept really well last night, and felt good when I woke up this morning, but suddenly I'm feeling really run down. My head feels kind of numb and tingly...actually, everything does. Weird.

I have a new obgyn. I'm not sure if I mentioned it, but I had an appointment last Tuesday, for general checkup and annual exam (read: pap smear. bleh), I also scheduled to have a blood test for my thyroid, which I thought had been acting up. (test results on Saturday: Negative) Anyway, my doctor is wonderful. She's funny and kind of young and not at all thin. I hate skinny doctors. AND she gave me a goodie bag! It's actually just my new birth control,(Seasonale, hurray, only 4 periods a year!) but it came in a little hot pink and black make-up case, with an "entertaining and educational video" and a sticker. I love it when I get stickers. NOW sent me one a week or so ago, and I was just *thrilled.* It's the little things y'know?

Pics!

This is also the one that's on my profile, but I think it's the best one, so I'm adding a big one. Sue me.

One More

I like this one too, even though I think it makes my arms look a little...fat. Should've gone without the bra strap.

Another!

I think this is a really cute picture, and the blanket is very effective at hiding my *small* extra chin. :)

What Do Ya Know...

It worked. I managed to post one of the new pics Justin took of me to my profile without much drama at all. Hm. You'll all notice the short haircut, there've been a few requests for pics of it, and also the lack of nosering and tan. Hopefully in the next weeks, both nosering and tan will return. I'm going to try and post some more pics on this now...we'll see how it works.

Oh, and I got up at 8:30 this morning, ate breakfast, watched church on TV and exercised on my gazelle. Huzzah!