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 Dramatic and over the top, you crave attention. And you'll do anything it takes to get noticed. You love to be seductive, even when it's inappropriate. If you're ignored, you're easily hurt ... and act out even more! |
Well, It Might Be a Little True
Getting it Together
I am wearing pants today a size smaller than I have worn in at least a year, probably two. And they are not tight. When I tried on this size in the store about a month ago, I couldn't get them zipped. I feel so pretty! My birthday is in two weeks and two days. I'll be 24. It's funny. That's always the age that I thought of as a real adult when I was younger. (Between the ages of 10 and 18 I guess.) I always thought: "Okay, when I'm 24, everything will be as it should be." I guess we'll see. Things are looking pretty good right now...
Planes and Trains & Automobiles
So, it's been awhile, but I've been busy.
Justin and I had a *great* weekend. We went shopping Friday night, because I needed some spring clothes, (nothing fits anymore!). I got two pairs of pants, a denim skirt, some pajama pants, and six shirts. That makes eighteen possible outfit combinations, and I spent $130!! I feel quite proud indeed. Saturday, we went to the car show in Dallas, which wouldn't normally be my thing, but we always do what I want to do, so it was Justin's turn to pick. I'm so glad we went! I've decided that I want a little bigger car than I originally thought, something more like a Toyota Matrix or Pontiac Vibe or Honda Civic SI. But I also found my dream car. It's the Toyota Prius. A gas electric hybrid that gets 60mph. It's so cool. The price is between 20-25k, so it's a little more than I thought I wanted to pay, so we'll have to wait and see how much I end up with for a down payment etc.
Sunday I cleaned my bathroom. You could eat off the floor. And I got a new cool shower curtain from Target. It's clear vinyl and has a HUGE (like, as tall as me) orange tulip in the center. I put a white curtain behind it, so I felt less...exposed.
Anyway, that's the update. Back to work!
**Editors Note** I am not a stupid girl. I realize that when you measure gas mileage, it's mpg, not mph. The above mistake is a typo. I also know that I could have just changed it and no one would know the mistake, but Justin already commented. Ptth.
SB
Justin and I had a *great* weekend. We went shopping Friday night, because I needed some spring clothes, (nothing fits anymore!). I got two pairs of pants, a denim skirt, some pajama pants, and six shirts. That makes eighteen possible outfit combinations, and I spent $130!! I feel quite proud indeed. Saturday, we went to the car show in Dallas, which wouldn't normally be my thing, but we always do what I want to do, so it was Justin's turn to pick. I'm so glad we went! I've decided that I want a little bigger car than I originally thought, something more like a Toyota Matrix or Pontiac Vibe or Honda Civic SI. But I also found my dream car. It's the Toyota Prius. A gas electric hybrid that gets 60mph. It's so cool. The price is between 20-25k, so it's a little more than I thought I wanted to pay, so we'll have to wait and see how much I end up with for a down payment etc.
Sunday I cleaned my bathroom. You could eat off the floor. And I got a new cool shower curtain from Target. It's clear vinyl and has a HUGE (like, as tall as me) orange tulip in the center. I put a white curtain behind it, so I felt less...exposed.
Anyway, that's the update. Back to work!
**Editors Note** I am not a stupid girl. I realize that when you measure gas mileage, it's mpg, not mph. The above mistake is a typo. I also know that I could have just changed it and no one would know the mistake, but Justin already commented. Ptth.
SB
D is for Drama
Drama: D'Liesa, my stepsister, filed for divorce officially yesterday afternoon. It was really the only thing left to do. She found an email to the girl that her husband's been cheating on her with (since July!), that made it pretty clear that he was just waiting for a reason to leave her without her knowing that he'd had an affair. Hello, he made it pretty obvious. Idiot. Who leaves a paper trail like that? So anyway, she's putting forth a brave front, and she's got a good lawyer, so I think everything will work out for the best.
More drama: My ex boyfriend, Ryan, sent me some messages on yahoo over the weekend. He's really screwed his life up, from what I can tell, and I'm pretty glad that I'm not around for it. Not sure exactly how much of the drama I believe right now, not that he doesn't intend for it to be true...he just has a rather skewed view of reality sometimes. The good news: while a part of me worries about his general well being, I don't feel compelled to rescue him again. I'm so well adjusted!
Justin started his crossing guard job today. He says that he really likes it, and that makes me really happy. After working such shit jobs for so long, it's time he found something that doesn't make him miserable. This is also good news, because it means that while I'm going to have to spend two paychecks in a row on rent, in order to afford to go to my younger siblings graduations, we'll have his checks to cushion the blow. Thank God.
AND: SuperTarget has really good fruit. Mmh.
More drama: My ex boyfriend, Ryan, sent me some messages on yahoo over the weekend. He's really screwed his life up, from what I can tell, and I'm pretty glad that I'm not around for it. Not sure exactly how much of the drama I believe right now, not that he doesn't intend for it to be true...he just has a rather skewed view of reality sometimes. The good news: while a part of me worries about his general well being, I don't feel compelled to rescue him again. I'm so well adjusted!
Justin started his crossing guard job today. He says that he really likes it, and that makes me really happy. After working such shit jobs for so long, it's time he found something that doesn't make him miserable. This is also good news, because it means that while I'm going to have to spend two paychecks in a row on rent, in order to afford to go to my younger siblings graduations, we'll have his checks to cushion the blow. Thank God.
AND: SuperTarget has really good fruit. Mmh.
The Way Things Should Be
I have a hard time dealing with death. In general. Even if it isn't someone close to me, I don't like it. I have a hard time comprehending that someone can be alive, and a person one minute, and just *not* moments later. I think that towards the end of life, we should start fading slowly until one day, we're just gone. So that people can get used to the idea that perhaps tomorrow, your chair will be empty.
It makes sense if you think about it. That's how it works when we come into the world. We develop slowly over time in our mothers wombs. From nothing, to several stages of non person, and then one day it's ta-da(!) a new human.
Here's what else is going on: My step sisters husband is an ass. He's been obviously cheating on her for a month, and now, the girl,(she's calling herself Sarah, but I suspect that's a lie) has become brazen enough to call D'Liesa's house. (As opposed to Les' cell phone, or something more respectable.) When D'Liesa questions the ass, he tells her it's none of her business. Please. *sigh* D'Liesa's a hot girl. She could easily find someone more acceptable than what she's got. She's afraid of being alone. Unfortunately, I know the feeling all too well. I settled for years for people like Les. Finally, I've found the right person. Finally, I don't feel like I'm settling. I wish everyone could be so lucky.
It makes sense if you think about it. That's how it works when we come into the world. We develop slowly over time in our mothers wombs. From nothing, to several stages of non person, and then one day it's ta-da(!) a new human.
Here's what else is going on: My step sisters husband is an ass. He's been obviously cheating on her for a month, and now, the girl,(she's calling herself Sarah, but I suspect that's a lie) has become brazen enough to call D'Liesa's house. (As opposed to Les' cell phone, or something more respectable.) When D'Liesa questions the ass, he tells her it's none of her business. Please. *sigh* D'Liesa's a hot girl. She could easily find someone more acceptable than what she's got. She's afraid of being alone. Unfortunately, I know the feeling all too well. I settled for years for people like Les. Finally, I've found the right person. Finally, I don't feel like I'm settling. I wish everyone could be so lucky.
Some Sad News
We found out yesterday afternoon that one of Justin's friends, Andrew, was killed in a motorcycle accident over the weekend. I only met him once, but I was able to tell, from that short meeting, and from what Justin has said of him, now and in the past, that he was a really great guy. Please think of his family and fiance today.
Validation
Someone noticed for the first time (besides Justin, who might be lying to make me feel good), that I've lost weight...or rather, am losing weight. It makes dragging myself out of bed at 5:30 worth it. I'm not sure how much I've lost, as I don't have a scale, but I'm going to try to avoid finding out until my dr.'s appointment on 26 April. That way, I'll have a full two months of killing myself under my belt before I have to face the scale.
In other news, yesterday was not a good day. I didn't get much sleep the night before, so I was just dead tired, and the tinniest thing could push me over the edge and I'd burst into tears. Ridiculous.
AND: Justin's been offered (pretty much) a job as a crossing guard through the city of Denton. It's $600/month for like two hours of work a day. Fabulous. It's not during non-school months, so he'll really get started I guess when school starts again in August, but it's still money that we'll have extra. Yay. Beth's going to remain my roommate through May, so that she doesn't have to move during finals, and that's good, because it's an extra month before I have to start paying a ridiculous amount for rent. Things are looking up.
In other news, yesterday was not a good day. I didn't get much sleep the night before, so I was just dead tired, and the tinniest thing could push me over the edge and I'd burst into tears. Ridiculous.
AND: Justin's been offered (pretty much) a job as a crossing guard through the city of Denton. It's $600/month for like two hours of work a day. Fabulous. It's not during non-school months, so he'll really get started I guess when school starts again in August, but it's still money that we'll have extra. Yay. Beth's going to remain my roommate through May, so that she doesn't have to move during finals, and that's good, because it's an extra month before I have to start paying a ridiculous amount for rent. Things are looking up.
Spring
Okay, spring is actually and officially here. I know they say that it starts March 21st, but I always go by when the time changes, and it's doing that. Tomorrow night.
I didn't get up and exercise this morning. I think I've decided to make Friday my off day, and then add minutes on Saturday to set the tone for the next week. I can't really see any new changes. Justin says I'm "plateau-ing." I don't like it one bit. I'm in a hurry to look good when I go back home at the end of May.
I got paid today, but it's a rent paycheck. bleh. Denton Storytelling Festival is this weekend, it's free, so that'll be fun.
I didn't get up and exercise this morning. I think I've decided to make Friday my off day, and then add minutes on Saturday to set the tone for the next week. I can't really see any new changes. Justin says I'm "plateau-ing." I don't like it one bit. I'm in a hurry to look good when I go back home at the end of May.
I got paid today, but it's a rent paycheck. bleh. Denton Storytelling Festival is this weekend, it's free, so that'll be fun.
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